Where Have I Been?

So, it's time to fess up and let you know what's been going on these past several months that this blog has been silent. First off, let me say that at the time of my last entry last year (prior to starting this thing back up a few days ago), I was working part time, taking 18 hours of school, and working out a lot. Some of that changed in January of this year when I lost the part time job I had, but continued to take another 18 hours of school and work out a lot. It was a really great time in my life, but too many Statistics classes later, and I think my brain might have melted just a wee little bit. I also think the phrase "wee little bit" is grossly under utilized.


That describes what I was doing, but falls terribly short of telling you what was actually going on. What was going on were some of the hardest working days of my life (unfortunately without the benefits of actually being a job). I was graduating from college, and hitting the gym constantly. I met Adrianne, aka The General, and began having my butt handed to me every Monday and Wednesday morning. At the end of the summer I started to throw in Kenpo work outs for that extra bit of cardio. I was constantly sweating. Constantly. And all of this hard work and determination yielded me 43 pounds gone. Yeah, it was anti-climatic for me too. The nice thing is that total I'm down 63 pounds, but I'd be lying if I said I didn't wish that number was higher. I mean, I work hard when I'm at the gym, like Biggest Loser style hard. I work through exhaustion (like, I get stupid tired up there sometimes), I work through pain (hello IT Band), why am I not getting Biggest Loser numbers and checks for $250,000?

Well, lots of reasons. First of all, while I do work long and hard, I have only ever maxed out at about 3 hours worth of working out at any given time. Maybe 3 1/2. These guys work out for 6-8 hours in a day. I still haven't figured out how that's humanly possible, but I'm will to find out!  Secondly, and this is the biggest of all, I stink at dieting. Six years ago I lost 118 pounds because I started working out in the mornings, and cut out all fast food. Now, at the time I was eating out literally three meals a day at LEAST five days a week, with several weeks being all seven days. My body didn't have high fructose corn syrup in it, I WAS high fructose corn syrup. So several months of morning cardio, and eating only from the house, and voila! I hit the century mark of weight loss. Then slowly yet surely, the work outs got back burnered, and the food got nasty again, and I welcomed back 80 of those old friends back onto my 5'4" frame. Hence why I will sometimes say that I've lost 43 pounds, and sometimes say that I've lost 63 pounds. It all kinda depends on if I'm needing to remind myself that this is a journey I have been on for a long time, and am continuing on for the long haul, or not.


So, why hasn't my body completely rebounded to it's former 118 pound less glory? I mean, I don't really eat any fast food anymore, and my diet is much MUCH cleaner all the way around than it used to be? The honest answer is, I'm not sure. But I know it's diet related. Because I can't possibly sweat any more than I already do. As I write this I'm looking at the clock to see how much time I have left before I have to leave to go meet with The General. This is not due to lack of effort. I do believe it's due to bad food. When I talk to trainers, they all agree that I'm not eating enough. Awesome. More on that in future postings. Here's what I know for sure...I'm not quitting. Ever. Like, I've fully resigned to being sore well into my 60's and 70's should I make it that far. And while it may be slower going than I'd really like, this Kelly is in fact shrinking, and will continue to do so for a long time to come. So, this isn't some twelve-week long project that I come out of with a tight body and a movie contract, this is a much much longer endeavor that is frustrating, exhausting, and frequently I want to quit. With all that being said...who's in? Because I am.